Ok I'm Blogging again

Jesus is pulling me closer to himself and showing me more
I'm not freaking out, and sitting in dispare over my failures as much as I used to
but Jesus is pulling me out the slime the tar-babies of life, and I realize he still loves
me even when I'm disobedient, and he will heal me.
My motives for fighting sin are changing its becoming less about fear of retribution
or trying to be "good" so I can feel "good" about my self, and more about changing my behaviors
and priorities to maximize the amount of God in my life.
Like a cat who stands up and lays down somewhere else because the sun is shining brighter
there, it feels better.
Of course the last thing the cat wants to do is stand up and walk over to the other side of the room, but the minor inconvenience is worth the reward.
This is the exact same reason a missionary will risk loss of reputation, career, health, or safety to do a thing that he believes is in the service of moving closer to God. He's merely moving his life towards where the sun shines brightest and the warmth most tangible, he may have to walk through shadows to get there but they are minor inconveniences compared to the reward.